Haha or Boohoo?

This is one of those times when I don't know whether I should laugh or cry.  Sometimes you just can't fix what's happening and you gotta try to go with the flow.  It's been a challenge to be a go-with-the-flow kind of person, although I have improved a tiny bit.  I've had lots of thoughts going through my head lately:  cancer, family, death, settling down with someone new, people from my past, work relationships.... The list goes on and on.  Some thoughts are positive, but still have sort of an ominous vibe to them, while other thoughts are sad and scary to even think about.  For example, how many people in my family will succumb to cancer?  Am I going to be one of them?  It's not a good thing to think about at all. At the same time, I also want to yell to the whole world that my family can kick cancer's ass!  Although this is not entirely true.  So that's positive thinking, yet clouded in sadness.  Anyway, just as I thought the road was getting smoother, it remains just as bumpy as before, albeit in a different way.  I'm just going to try to keep finding the silver lining and try to think positively through this section of life.  Also, I'm going to dedicate this particular post to my cousin Mark.  I know he'll be strong enough to persevere through his treatment plan.